+21,233

I broke 20k! I'm so tired though. I feel as if I cannot continue! My novel goes to places it shouldn't. I almost put in a warp and went to something completely different! But I can't do that to it. The moment in my life I'm trying to recreate in words is not being justified by those words. The memories in my head surpasses everything written down. It's so terrible. I feel as if I shouldn't even be attempting this! But it's worth it? I'm reverting to that part of my life now too. Doing those things I swore I'd never do again. Man I suck.